Born Date In A Week

And with that date coming up, i've been trying to create a new image for myself. It isn't a fun task in any way, but I feel as though it's necessary. Some of the things that I find associated with myself, I'd rather dissociate from. This means making more conscious decisions throughout the day. It feels like in doing this I'm putting on a front, like it's all a facade. The last thing I want to be seen as is fake, but I also have realized that thinking before you act is not necessarily fraudulent behavior.

Sure, reaching into the cookie jar may be more my mode of operation, but what purpose does it serve? At the end of the day, reaching, even just taking the lid off to peek tends to be a detriment. When I think of the outcome of this behavior, it may be self-satisfying for the moment, but what kind of image does it cause me to reflect? As the summer months come closer and my skin gets darker, the last thing I need is to have a shadow cast on me.

For this reason, I look to be a better person for me. When people look at me, I want them to see the person that I see in the mirror. Although many of my actions are playful, others can take them more seriously than I intended. Now, I am trying to look at myself and my actions or lack thereof through the eyes of others, rather than through my own.

As I get older, I mature in some ways while I seem to practice dormancy in other areas of my life. I understand now that the person I present to the world can be considered very unattractive in ways, and this needs to be corrected. I know who I want to be seen as, just not how to show this person to the world around me.

Working on it though; wish me luck on my self-betterment efforts please!